Day 2 - Weigh In

     My three things on my schedge from yesterday were completed! I threw out my anniversary gift of Ferror Rochers and Toblerones. Why do I feel the need to add a sad face there? I also danced with the kids and walked with my bff, Candy. Now #3 on the list gave me huge amounts of stress. What if I didn't do it right? I'm not a Nutritionist. Obvs.

     Today was easier than yesterday because I decided to relax on making this extravagant meal plan that I was going to formulate. The last time my husband and I lost weight *groan* we used The Biggest Loser: 6 Weeks to a Healthier You. It's full of workouts. meal plans, and it just makes this busy Mama less stressed out thinking about calorie calculating and everything that comes with it.  Plus, I already paid for it and I know that it works. Basically you eat right and exercise. Doy. No brainer, right? If I knew how to do all that I wouldn't be in this... body/situation.

     I also conquered a fear today. You know how you know that you've gained weight, but if you don't know the number you're kind of in La La Land? Yeah, that's been me for the last few months. So, I turned on the Wii Fit to get my starting weight. Screw around with batteries for awhile. Went to the bathroom again, just in case. Eventually, though, I got on the scale. I found out that 116 days since the last time I logged in I had gained 12.6 lbs. I felt defeated, but at the same time okay with it because I was at the weight that I thought I might be at. My highest. ever. in. my. life. 

     Ugh, I still feel like crap about it. Who am I kidding? How did this happen?! It's no mystery unfortunately:

1. I emotionally eat. Picture a pretty girl, bigger than most, her life is going great, she has an outstanding personality, but one small stumble in the road and she's a crying mess on the couch eating pizza, cookies, junk, you name it. Crisis big or small food is a comfort if no one else is there.
2. I eat when I'm bored. Kids sleeping? Time to eat stuff that I don't want to share.
3. I overeat when I have anything delicious. The caveman mentality of "I'll never eat (this) again!" kicks in.
4. I definitely couldn't care any less about getting active.

     This is all because I don't have this part of my life in order. I'm severely lacking in that department. It's a chocolate and bread free for all up in this piece.

     My exercise plan right now is to walk every night. If I can't walk at night then I will walk in the morning. If I can't get out by myself I will bring the kids in the wagon. No excuses. I will also do my Sit Up app and Jillian Michael's 30 Day Shred Level 1.

I can do this! *Insert end of the movie jump and fist pump*