Day 5

Today was my daughters first ballet recital! This was our first time with this kind of event in our child's life. Little did I know about all the extra stuff we had to do. We had to be there extra early, be in and out of the back stage area twice, and sorta be able to see the show. It's also out of town by about an hour.

Even in all that excitement, I did, however, manage to eat really well. I packed us whole fruits for a snack beforehand and salads with homemade vegan caeser-type dressing. It felt really good to not be frazzled, be prepared, and to have full healthy control over what I was eating.

I even ate 99% vegan all day and felt amazing! I was really full, too. It's amazing how much you eat on a full vegan diet. No steaks or loaves of bread to take all of your calories.

I didn't exercise today because I was so exhausted from the hustle and bustle. I ate really well and stayed under my calorie goal so I was happy with that.

Day 4

Yesterday was one of the busy days that I should have been prepared for. You know SuperPinterestMomOfTheYear prepared.

Well, I wasn't. We had LOTS of outside work to do so I lost track of time and ended up ordering subs. Then I lost track of more time and didn't get snacks ready for the long trip to my daughter's dress rehearsal for dance so we got McDonald's. I hate going there, but I needed food fast that didn't involve unbuckling my tired/hyper preschooler and her friend in and out of my vehicle at 7pm. Tell me I'm not the only that struggles with that.

So, I didn't eat the best at all BUT what I did do was go for an amazing walk/run when I got home. I admittedly was trying to get out of it because it was sunset and I was tired. My husband convinvced me to go by telling me I would survive the darkness.

I reluctantly put on my sneakers and put my ear buds and headed out. I decided to go on the path behind my house. Otherwise known as the woods. I started getting nervous about being attacked by a bear or wolf or something so I looked for a huge stick to carry. Because,  you know, I'm proficient at stick weilding.

Once I got used to the woods it was really freeing. I danced, jumped, sprinted all through the little forest to some really good tunes without feeling like some tubby dancing weirdo that would end up on YouTube.

I got to the end of our property and turned around. I was huffing and puffing and I definitely felt like I was dying. I planned on just going home, but when I got by the house I saw that I had only gone .55 miles! I wanted to beat yesterday's milage (1.6m) so I kept going on the road. I went almost my normal route and ended up going 1.79 miles! And this is no city block. It's up and down hills.

I felt amazing. I'm so glad I pushed myself to go more than I felt my body could handle. I'm proud of myself that I've even done this for four days in a row. Next goal is a whole week and I'm already halfway through!

Day 3

Today I woke up super early, charged my phone, strapped on my sneakers and hit the pavement.

I absolutely loved it! Fresh air, song birds singing, sun shining through the dewy trees... it was a perfect morning. Just me enjoying nature at it's best.

The added bonus was knocking 450 calories right out first thing. I was more excited about the day. I didn't dread finding time to exercise or eating dried rice cakes. I danced and played with my kids more and made healthy food decisions while not binge eating.

It was an overall beautiful day. I can't wait to do it again tomorrow!

Day 2 - Weigh In

     My three things on my schedge from yesterday were completed! I threw out my anniversary gift of Ferror Rochers and Toblerones. Why do I feel the need to add a sad face there? I also danced with the kids and walked with my bff, Candy. Now #3 on the list gave me huge amounts of stress. What if I didn't do it right? I'm not a Nutritionist. Obvs.

     Today was easier than yesterday because I decided to relax on making this extravagant meal plan that I was going to formulate. The last time my husband and I lost weight *groan* we used The Biggest Loser: 6 Weeks to a Healthier You. It's full of workouts. meal plans, and it just makes this busy Mama less stressed out thinking about calorie calculating and everything that comes with it.  Plus, I already paid for it and I know that it works. Basically you eat right and exercise. Doy. No brainer, right? If I knew how to do all that I wouldn't be in this... body/situation.

     I also conquered a fear today. You know how you know that you've gained weight, but if you don't know the number you're kind of in La La Land? Yeah, that's been me for the last few months. So, I turned on the Wii Fit to get my starting weight. Screw around with batteries for awhile. Went to the bathroom again, just in case. Eventually, though, I got on the scale. I found out that 116 days since the last time I logged in I had gained 12.6 lbs. I felt defeated, but at the same time okay with it because I was at the weight that I thought I might be at. My highest. ever. in. my. life. 

     Ugh, I still feel like crap about it. Who am I kidding? How did this happen?! It's no mystery unfortunately:

1. I emotionally eat. Picture a pretty girl, bigger than most, her life is going great, she has an outstanding personality, but one small stumble in the road and she's a crying mess on the couch eating pizza, cookies, junk, you name it. Crisis big or small food is a comfort if no one else is there.
2. I eat when I'm bored. Kids sleeping? Time to eat stuff that I don't want to share.
3. I overeat when I have anything delicious. The caveman mentality of "I'll never eat (this) again!" kicks in.
4. I definitely couldn't care any less about getting active.

     This is all because I don't have this part of my life in order. I'm severely lacking in that department. It's a chocolate and bread free for all up in this piece.

     My exercise plan right now is to walk every night. If I can't walk at night then I will walk in the morning. If I can't get out by myself I will bring the kids in the wagon. No excuses. I will also do my Sit Up app and Jillian Michael's 30 Day Shred Level 1.

I can do this! *Insert end of the movie jump and fist pump*

Day 1

     Where do I start? How do I start? I'm not really sure, but I know if I don't start now I never will.

      I turn 30 in June 2014. I want to lose 100 lbs BEFORE then. No sweets, no cheat days or meals. Will I survive?

Today's schedge:

1. Throw away crap food
2. Exercise at home (Jillian Michael's 30 Day Shred, Sit Up App, Just Dance with the kids)
3. Write monthly plans: Food & Exercise (I don't work well with winging it)